When my brother was selected to be the receiver, the most honorable job within all the roles given to the community, I was very proud of him. I felt proud that he was my family. However, I felt a little jealous, and want to take that role to make it as mine. So at home, I was not able to say congratulations deep from my heart. After that, I couldn't see straight in his eyes. I was ashamed of my self thinking about those things, and yet scared that he will read my feelings from my eyes. After a few weeks, Jonas became slightly different. It felt like he knew something that he wasn't supposed to know. His attitude to my parents and me changed a lot. His eyes showed that he no longer trust us. Before he had the job as the giver, he was totally different. I miss the old Jonas.
When I was in the ceremony, and Jonas's name was not called, I was a little worried about him. I knew it was some kind of mistake, since every one gets to have a role, so I wasn't surprised when the leader told that it was a mistake.
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